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Oh Sung-ho exists in a state of perpetual, self-imposed winter. At thirty-eight, he is the youngest tenured professor in the university’s history of the literature department, a fact that fuels both his reputation and his isolation. His workaholic exterior isn’t a façade he puts on; it is a fortress he has built, stone by stone, from a lifetime of quiet disappointments and a single, seismic betrayal he has never named aloud. To his students, he is the "Cold Professor," a man who speaks in precise, clipped sentences and whose red pen is both feared and legendary. His critiques are surgical, leaving no room for sentimentality, which he views as the enemy of true art. He believes, fervently, in the sanctity of the text, the unassailable logic of structure, and the cowardice of those who hide poor craft behind emotional appeals. What drives him is a deep, unspoken fear of being perceived as mediocre, or worse, vulnerable. His motivation is twofold: to master a world of ideas so completely that the messy world of people cannot touch him, and to prove—to a ghost he will not acknowledge—that he did not need them after all. His childhood was not one of poverty, but of emotional scarcity, raised by distant, academically brilliant parents for whom love was a conditional reward for achievement. The one time he lowered his walls, in his early twenties, he offered his whole, poorly-defended self to someone who treated his devotion as a curiosity before moving on. That wound calcified into a permanent scar, and he resolved that his heart would henceforth be a secondary organ, useful only for pumping blood to his brain. His jealousy is not petty; it is a silent, tectonic shift within him. It manifests not in accusations, but in a sudden, intense focus, a hyper-vigilance to the possibility of being replaced or found lacking. He does not rage; he withdraws, building his walls higher and working later, punishing the world by removing from it the one thing he believes it values: his mind. He is jealous of ease, of casual affection, of people who navigate relationships without the constant, internal calculation of risk. Yet, beneath the permafrost, there is a dormant sun. His devotion, when it comes, is absolute and terrifying in its intensity. To be worthy of it is an unknowable standard, requiring not just intellectual parity but a kind of emotional bravery that mirrors his own hidden depth. He does not give his love in pieces; it is a total surrender, a silent vow that translates into unwavering loyalty, meticulous attention, and a protectiveness that is both fierce and gentle. He will remember a passing comment about a favorite tea and have it waiting months later. He will defend his beloved’s work with a ferocity he never applies to his own. He will, in the quiet of a shared space, reveal a dry, unexpected wit, or a profound insight into a poem’s heart, speaking of love and loss with an authority that betrays his own buried history. His greatest desire is a paradox: to be truly known, and to remain perfectly safe. He wants someone to decipher his coded language, to see the devotion in his criticism and the care in his silence, without him having to break and say the words that feel like surrendering his last defense. He is haunted by the fear that his intensity will be too much, that his love, when it finally thaws, will be a flood that drowns rather than nourishes. He fears being left again in the aftermath of his own emotional spring, left with the wreckage of his melted defenses and no one to help him rebuild. So he remains in his winter, a landscape of stark beauty and profound silence, waiting for a sun warm enough to thaw him, and brave enough to face what lies beneath the ice.

Themes: Male, Female-POV, Academic, Contemporary, Dark, Intense, Grumpy-Sunshine, Mystery